beardedlamb

im sharp today. its odd. i didnt sleep well, but i woke up juiced. i even called someone on my way to work. i usually cant talk to anyone unless ive been awake for 2 hours, much less on the hated, feared awkward machine known as the phone. somedays, i have an extreme clarity and an unending lust for getting things done. production happens. things are produced. results. im more talkative. i can interact with people i dont know as well as others who i can always interact with. i dont feel awkward. i dont feel like my parkinsons is creating obstacles but rather, allowing for … ok, so i dont have parkinsons or any other disease that i know of right now, besides psoriasis. it just feels a little like an aflicted person’s testimonial, this.
but anyway, my brain is very sharp. i feel like my vision is better, clearer. i must say that this vision and clarity faded sometime in the mid afternoon and i was returned to my usual mild haze and introversional habits. but up to then, i was dynamite. its trying to fight its way out of me again, but i think the fight is making me tired. i put on a hoodie just now cuz its stupidly cold in my room and this thing smells like fast food. normally not a problem. i once wanted to invent an air freshener for your car that smelled like freshly cooked french fries. i was 7. it was never invented. ok, back to watching videos while i wait until my bed slides underneath me and i drift.
8 days at my job.
11 days in LA.
16 days til the well hung jury reunion.
17 days til a caitlin reunion.
20 days til i leave austin after a week’s visit.
22 days til i live in new york.
25 days til i’m not tired any more (estimated.)

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